guardians of the mind

You should be more grateful

to those guardians maligned

that hide all those memories

to protect your mind

the sexual exploitation

violence you can't recall

abuse done by institutions

like Stowlangtoft hall

they hide away the memories

and protect them like a bank

in the recesses of the mind

your synapses draw a blank

a curse on all hypnotists

and talking therapy

that can not cure the pain

but let your demons free

with their interfering

trying to make it right

you relive the terrors

with flash backs in the night

more vivid than dreaming

the memories you recall

you get the taste the smell and fear

you relive it all

so treat them to opioids

if you think you must

don't try to get around them

they're hiding your disgust

wetting the bed

Suffer little children
have mercy on them all
chanted the nuns in sacred prayer
in Srtowlangtoft hall


for the damage boys and orphans
on Saturday will get a treat
the nuns will get their bacon
and boys will get other meat


the game is called hide and seek
for Hershy bars and gum
the airmen call them special
and treat them like they're scum


they touch the thighs and stroke the hair
and slap them if you cried
they take their hand to the trouser bulge
and told to feel inside


they hold the face in two strong hands
and thumbs open up the jaw
because they are a special one
so often said before


the mouth used so rough and cruel
more satisfaction sought
removal of the shorts and pants
for all the gifts they bought


because they are a special one
his pleasure they have found
they never screamed or called for help
they never made a sound


if they screamed or or tried to fight
more punishment they would endure
a blind eye given is by the nuns
so the soul remains clean and pure


the pillows are wet from small boy tears
when they lay their head
they'll be punishment in the morning
because they wet their bed